I met her at a VA appointment and she couldn't give me details of who and why I was scheduled to see her. I didn't know what was in store for me? I didn't understand why she was so secretive. She claimed she just started working there and they gave her a sheet of questions to be answered. So I was reluctant to answer her questions truthfully because I wasn't aware of what would happen to me? Would I be admitted to mental institution? Would I have to take more pills besides my 22 pill VA cocktail? Would my benefits that I've earned by serving in combat be taken away? Even though I live in so much chronic pain, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and so much more. Most days I wish I would not wake up. But if it weren't for my wife and my children, I would be done. My wife helps me with so much that I at most times can't do on my own. I don't drive because of insomnia, 22pills a day, and I'm in just so much pain. She handles meds and appointments because I forget or I just want to give up on it all. She helps keep it together. She keeps me alive. After having my "appointment with Dr. Grants I we find out that my wife no longer has the benefit for taking care of me and keeping things in check. She goes through so much. That's the least she can receive. This effects us so much. Don't you think? Our lives aren't easy, believe me when I say this. Thank you Dr. Frantz. Not all Vets are bad. Some of us just want to live.

Submitted Aug. 27, 2015