Methadone...My new life..
Positive......I'm not sick when I wake up in the morning
Negative...I've never really felt good
My sleep is messed. Sleep a couple hours, up and down all night
Have no feeling of up and go, like I worked since I was 15
I have no interests to do anything, unless I can get cocaine
I have gained 70 to 80 pounds
I have lots of varicose veins, legs and feet always swelling
I now have thyroid
I now have rotten teeth
I now have a large pharmacy bill
I am always feeling threatened about missing appointments
Always worrying, anxiety
Depressed, no more wine to relax in the evening
Was never fully aware of all these issues
I want off, but how I'm not allowed to have the meds I need
Oh and yes I am on pain meds....600mgs gabapentin 3 to 4 times a day
I just don't understand why the medical systems seem to be failing me
I do not feel a like I am living a good quality way of life
I can go to detox for 5 days. What would happen to me? My mind is too weak..
I feel like I would be in a dying emergency without the methadone
Why am I not just on narcotics? Is this not my life?
I feel like I am being missed diagnosed and nobody cares Where do I go for someone to help me?????? PS I copied this that's why my indents are messed up.