discouraged and in severe pain
I joined this forum for one single reason and that it to tell all of you Rheumatologists that you are the cruelest human beings ever.
You are supposed to become specialized doctors to help people overcome their pain.
After being referred to your department two times by my family doctor and also by the foothills hospital you deny the request without even giving me an appointment and evaluating me on why I'm having so much pain.
I have suffered now in pain for over a year and a half without proper pain relief and im getting to a point where I don't want to live anymore because I cant live with the severity of my chronic pain.
I have pain in my big toe which forces my foot to walk in an odd manner to avoid the pain. I have pain in my ankles to which they hurt so bad that they constantly cant hold my weight, I wake up every morning with stiff knees and after just one day of work they feel as if they are twisting from both sides and I cry in pain throughout the night and I cant even fall asleep. I can not sleep on my sides because if I do the hips feel as if they are breaking. my lower back is stiff in the morning and as my day goes on it get excruciating painful just to stand, sit or lay down for a half hour. my fingers are so painful that its hard just to move them and forget about grasping something, they become numb and tight and I cant get them straight again without force. the bottom of my thumbs by my wrists hurt ever time I move them.
I'm in tears every day, every single day for the passed year. and what do you Rheumatologists do, NOTHING, you refuse to see, diagnose and treat my illness. Thank you, Thank you very much for your warm hearts and kindness toward my well being.