Dr. Madeline B. Deutsch
Madeline B. Deutsch Clinic San Francisco
450 Stanyan St
San Francisco, CA, United States
94101
450 Stanyan St
San Francisco, CA, United States
94101
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My appointment began with Deutsch telling me to get out. When I told her I was non-binary, she groaned loudly and put her face in her hands. She acted like she was getting my hormone/surgery history, but was looking for any reason to throw me out, at one point stopping completely and accusingly asking me “SO YOU HAVEN’T EVEN HAD TOP SURGERY YET?!?!” (I had, years ago…) and she dramatically threw her face into her hands again when she heard I had accessed HRT through informed consent. When I was visibly shocked by her behavior, she sneered at me mockingly through her hands. I had been attacked back in 2018, and I was still struggling with anxiety and feeling unsafe, and I thought Deutsch would know something about trauma informed care, as she works with trans people and is trans herself. I shut down halfway through the appointment, but Deutsch kept unloading on me. I could tell she was enjoying how scared and hurt I was by her actions. In the final moments of my appointment, Deutsch asked if I had gonads (I didn’t), and it became apparent she hadn’t read my chart at all and knew nothing about my case. She had just spent the entire time melting down on me, and using me as a punching bag. As my appointment ended, Deutsch looked over my body and made light of my weight. (It was during the pandemic, and I was struggling with thyroid issues… because the endo I was seeing right then was acting like a monster) I felt numb after, and I felt so desperate. I had wanted to discuss moving forward with bottom surgery, and I hadn’t been able to discuss anything, as Deutsch had been so consumed with declaring me a fraud and mistreating during my appointment.
I am a Black & Cherokee trans man, and it is so scary and violating when a white trans person uses the concept of a “fake/failed” trans person as a cudgel to mistreat you. It really feels like there is nothing you can do to convince them otherwise, because if they’re acting like that, they never saw you as enough of a human being in the first place. I was in a rough state already during the time of my appointment, and after what happened, I spiraled and I tried to take my life. How I was treated here was wrong, I never deserved that.
Submitted Feb. 17, 2024